Update

I suppose that overall things are going well for me right now. Although when I list off all of my problems, I begin to think otherwise.

For example, I'm not sure how I'm doing in classes. Well, I think I'm doing fine in all of my classes except one, which I could write an entire blog on. Its a programming class, and the teacher doesn't teach us the programming language, he teaches us about data mining. But our assignments don't cover data mining, they cover the programming language. But all in all I would say school is going well, I just wish I would stop staying up so late so I can wake up for class. It's truly sad that I've missed class because I didn't want to wake up at 11:00 a.m. because of not having enough sleep (going to bed at 5 or 6).

Also, I'm a little worried about finding a place to live next year. I know that I want to live in an apartment, but we haven't exactly find one yet. Then again we haven't exactly looked yet. I know where I want to live, and last week they had a vacancy...I guess I should get on that. But I don't know how on Earth I could pay for the deposit.

Also, I'm just a little in the dumps about my love life. I would really like to have a girlfriend. Last semester there was one girl who I liked a lot. A whole lot. That girl is no longer an option but thats okay because there is another girl who I have my eyes on now. As usual with girls though I am just worried of rejection. And as easy as it is for me to type "I'll never know unless I try" its just not that easy for me to do. Its. Just. Not. And I hate it. I feel like she doesn't like me like that. Girls never really have, why should she? I feel like she can find someone better. But one of my friends has told me "You should go after______" so I'm thinking I should.

There are a lot of things I want to do, but always put off doing. I'm going to list them off. I want to begin going to the gym. I would like to do this three times a week, but two would suffice. Hell, once a week would be better than now. And I always say, starting next week! and next week gets here and I'm not in the gym. I want to be sure I'm registered to vote in the upcoming primary. I want to go to bed earlier and wake up and have a good day, instead of wake up and hurry to class. I want to clean my room. I want to work more often. I want to do homework BEFORE the day it's due. I want to be able to tell a girl how I really feel. I want to watch anime. I want to read a few books. I really want to learn how to play the guitar. I want to become involved in booking shows, and have a house with a basement where I can put on shows. One day I will do these things. I just need the motivation, and I think time running out is going to have to be that motivation.

No one reads this blog. No one. If you do, prove me wrong and leave a comment. But I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who ever sees that. And thats fine I suppose. I guess just writing this stuff out is good. Who knows.