Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Update

I suppose that overall things are going well for me right now. Although when I list off all of my problems, I begin to think otherwise.

For example, I'm not sure how I'm doing in classes. Well, I think I'm doing fine in all of my classes except one, which I could write an entire blog on. Its a programming class, and the teacher doesn't teach us the programming language, he teaches us about data mining. But our assignments don't cover data mining, they cover the programming language. But all in all I would say school is going well, I just wish I would stop staying up so late so I can wake up for class. It's truly sad that I've missed class because I didn't want to wake up at 11:00 a.m. because of not having enough sleep (going to bed at 5 or 6).

Also, I'm a little worried about finding a place to live next year. I know that I want to live in an apartment, but we haven't exactly find one yet. Then again we haven't exactly looked yet. I know where I want to live, and last week they had a vacancy...I guess I should get on that. But I don't know how on Earth I could pay for the deposit.

Also, I'm just a little in the dumps about my love life. I would really like to have a girlfriend. Last semester there was one girl who I liked a lot. A whole lot. That girl is no longer an option but thats okay because there is another girl who I have my eyes on now. As usual with girls though I am just worried of rejection. And as easy as it is for me to type "I'll never know unless I try" its just not that easy for me to do. Its. Just. Not. And I hate it. I feel like she doesn't like me like that. Girls never really have, why should she? I feel like she can find someone better. But one of my friends has told me "You should go after______" so I'm thinking I should.

There are a lot of things I want to do, but always put off doing. I'm going to list them off. I want to begin going to the gym. I would like to do this three times a week, but two would suffice. Hell, once a week would be better than now. And I always say, starting next week! and next week gets here and I'm not in the gym. I want to be sure I'm registered to vote in the upcoming primary. I want to go to bed earlier and wake up and have a good day, instead of wake up and hurry to class. I want to clean my room. I want to work more often. I want to do homework BEFORE the day it's due. I want to be able to tell a girl how I really feel. I want to watch anime. I want to read a few books. I really want to learn how to play the guitar. I want to become involved in booking shows, and have a house with a basement where I can put on shows. One day I will do these things. I just need the motivation, and I think time running out is going to have to be that motivation.

No one reads this blog. No one. If you do, prove me wrong and leave a comment. But I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who ever sees that. And thats fine I suppose. I guess just writing this stuff out is good. Who knows.

Monday, January 14, 2008

insomnia.

ok, maybe its not quite insomnia. But i stay awake way too late way too often. for example, i have class at 9:30 in the morning and its currently 2:44 am. i just finished my homework for that class. It took me all of 5 minutes to do, but i've been putting it off since 8 p.m. Yet, i havent really done anything to important since 8pm. actually, i havent really done anything at all. Tonight was supposed to be the night i got a full 8 hours, fingers crossed for tomorrow....

the past and the present

wasn't in the best of moods tonight, and couldn't sleep. thought i would read my old xanga entries to cheer myself up. those were some weird days. my world was complete shit on one end, but not so bad on the other nearly the entire way through high school. i was never really happy, but i never hit rock bottom because something always kept me going. I read them and think "man ive grown up a lot since then" and i think about how much i've changed. but in a sense things are still the same. my life is going good, and its going bad. but the bad are details, in the wide scope of things, im pretty happy.

Sunday, January 6, 2008

blackout.

last night at roughly 5:17 a.m. the power went out. at first i thought maybe it was only in my room and it would kick back on. nothing is that simple. after a few seconds i wondered into the hallway and one of the guys next to me, and a guy across from me were in the hall as well. the power was out in our whole hallway. eventually we realized the power was out in the entire main quad. i went to bed a little before six.

when i woke up at noon the power was still out. it stayed that way for a while until they got a generator running and now we have lights in the hall and in our rooms, and in some rooms the outlets work. in mine of course, they don't. so here i am with nothing to do. i went to a friends room to get a little charge on my laptop and now i sit in my room writing this. it turns out the power is out elsewhere on campus too and maybe classes will be canceled tomorrow. they have already told us the power wont be fixed until tomorrow.

so yeah, basically it sucks having no power. at least it was kind of cool without the lights. its not a true blackout with lights. its just a lame power outage. i even bought a flashlight and everything to prepare for a true blackout. today i realized how much my life depends on electricity. i have no tv to watch, no x box to play, when the battery on my laptop dies i wont have a computer to use, i dont have a charger for my phone, etc etc etc. the moral of the story; power outages are no fun.

Thursday, December 27, 2007

top 30 albums of 2007/introductions

Hello. This is my first post here.

First, my blog needs a good name recommend one please.

I'll use this blog to write basically whatever I'm thinking of when I happen to log in. Perhaps it will just be my thoughts. Perhaps there will be cd or book reviews. Who knows. But you can expect to see this every year (for however many years this lasts)

Andrew East presents the top 30 albums of 2007

if theres something you havent heard i highly suggest you give it a listen. this is in order.
1. Explosions In The Sky - All Of A Sudden I Miss Everyone
2. Crime In Stereo - Is Dead
3. Thrice - The Alchemy Index Vols 1 & 2
4. Menomena - Friend And Foe
5. The National - Boxer
6. Dear And The Headlights - Small Steps, Heavy Hooves
7. Between The Buried And Me - Colors
8. Stars - In Our Bedroom After The War
9. Radiohead - In Rainbows
10. John Vanderslice - Emerald City
11. Four Year Strong - Rise Or Die Trying
12. Jimmy Eat World - Chase This Light
13. Bishop Allen - The Broken String
14. 1997 - ...A Better View Of The Rising Moon
15. The Receiving End Of Sirens - The Earth Sings Mi Fa Mi
16. A Day To Remember - For Those Who Have Heart
17. 65daysofstatic - The Destruction Of Small Ideas
18. Rilo Kiley - Under The Blacklight
19. The Snake The Cross The Crown - Cotton Teeth
20. The Wonder Years - Get Stoked On It!
21. The Pax Cecilia - Blessed Are The Bonds
22. Minus The Bear - Planet Of Ice
23. Joseph Arthur And The Lonely Astronauts - Let's Just Be
24. The Arcade Fire - Neon Bible
25. As Cities Burn - Come Now Sleep
26. The Dillinger Escape Plan - Ire Works
27. The Devil Wears Prada - Plagues
28. Dustin Kensrue - Please Come Home
29. Comeback Kid - Broadcasting
30. Kanye West - Graduation